How refreshing it is to be back in France. Sitting in some lonely student cafe; whilst it pours down outside. Briefly forgot all my french; so I vow to speak it to Cecile now every day that I am here. I told her about the job that I was offered, which means that I have to return to London once again; reassuring her that we'll have a cat named Jackie when she comes. Blimey I feel down today, I hide myself amongst the shadows in the corner of the coffee shop and think about her and what I-m going to say when the waitress comes my way.
Keep finding myself making long term promises with this girl, I dont think I've ever done this before. Maybe I promise to call some random female after a sordid one night stand because I cant stand the thought of meeting a girl once just for her to disappear; but these long term plans are NEW and its scares the shit out of me!!
Just looked at the headlines on the bbc website; global shares tumbling and wiping out any gains. It makes me feel selfishly elated, I have to admit. Its the hope that this will spark some kind of global sustainable development revolution; where capitalism admits its flaws and we embrace a new philosophy of corporate social responsiblity. There is a feeling the pit of my stomach which turns over and over and I feel refreshed to have got out of bed this morning.
